What am I doing???

Okay, okay — I know I haven’t posted in a minute. Nothing too wild has happened, and honestly, I didn’t feel like reopening old chapters. Buttttt… holy moly, I need you to answer this one for me:

Am I my husband’s side chick?

Yes, we’re separated. Yes, he has a situationship with the girl he stayed in a hotel with when he left us. And yes… he’s also been hooking up with me.

I get it — bad on my part. I hear you already. But we’ve known each other since grade school. There’s always going to be some kind of connection there. Sue me.

The part that gets messy is this: he keeps me a secret from her. She doesn’t know we’re still seeing each other. So now I’m sitting here like… am I the bad person? Or is it different because that’s technically still my husband?

Should I feel guilty? Or just confused?

Because right now, it feels like I accidentally signed up to be someone’s “other woman” in my own marriage — and that’s a weird place to be.